I am sorry

I want to apologize for the things I said. I tried my best to be gentle but if it was truly sad to your heart, please forgive me. I have come across uncountable times people commit wrong and I correct them or someone else corrects me. In the beginning all of us will say we are not perfect. So the wrong that I commit, I will humbly come to receive correction. However if people have known that they are wrong, it has no reason why they cannot accept how wrong I am to them. For no reason they do not know what they are speaking. I come to accept my wrong, I have admitted it and there are times I admitted so much that I failed to convince people. A humble man will only live to listen and he does not know very much about his thoughts. When they cannot accept my wrong, when they are wrong, they cannot accept how they are wrong. It's a simultaneous reaction that whenever people cannot accept other people's wrong, they cannot accept themselves as wrong. It has no reason. If a man commits wrong lesser than I commit wrong, he should be grateful. And what's more, I am humble enough to tolerate and learn. If I have accepted my wrong and he goes beyond me, how do I feel? It makes me feel guilty if I understand him too hard. The moment that I finally understand and correct him till he knows that he is wrong, he will begin to say that I am evil or I do not sound humble. He patches up his wrong but it is true because a care is also a worry. He tries to avoid God's punishment by bringing temptations to me. At that moment I feel that what he says is right because I am drifting away from God. I disobey Him for such a long period of time but I do not know. I am not aware that it is God who wants me to stop. So now I know that I should assume that he does not know what he is saying. I should continue to be humble and listen to God despite all misunderstandings. I should continue to be a foolish man.

It has no reason why it is always they are the ones who start to be unfair when I have accepted greatly how unfair I am to them. There are times when I do not know that I said wrongly, I humbly ask to check my understanding with them but for no reason, they do not like it because in the end they will know that they are wrong. If they can just tell me politely that there are certain things that they are not sure but this is what they are told, it is enough for me to understand them. If you put all your beliefs into something but it has no reason why you have to believe that it is true, then just say it. A humble man does not mind about it. A humble man's life is always reasonless yet it is true with God. You do not need to be tricky in thoughts so that the other person who is more humble than you will start to be evil. If you can agree like any normal human being that it is not good for a man to go beyond his thoughts about God's nature, do not encourage him to do so even though it is always good to go deeper with God. I am sure God calls a depressed man to be loved without needing to know any reason. Does God need to tell you His reason to love you when you know he loves you always? He will humble the man to listen to him for what the man remembers until there is a time he will be naturally lifted. May God bless you with a meaningful life to be humble and gracious at all times.